Tuesday, 5 November 2019

Ten Years

I have:

Completed two undergraduate degrees. Embarked on my dream exchange semester. Explored a multitude of local and international places. Joined the "professional" workforce and commenced my career. Challenged myself. Became more self-assured and content with who I am.

Ten years ago, I graduated from highschool.

With the benefit of hindsight, the highschool years were such a simple time. A period where I didn't have any real obligations, apart from self-imposed saving goals*. But I would be lying if I said that I enjoyed highschool. I had such a haphazard group of "friends" who, honestly, just enjoyed being in and creating such a toxic and competitive environment.

"Highschool will be the best years of your life", they said.

Well, highschool Nat was horrified by that notion.

"Uni will be the best years of your life",
they also said.

My uni self vehemently disagreed.

Those well-intentioned sentiments resulted in a lot of inner turmoil as it simply wasn’t the case for me. Cue the catastrophising - have I already peaked in life without peaking?

In all seriousness, am I where I thought I would be?

I suppose so.

Ten years ago, the future absolutely terrified me and I thought that I needed to know exactly what I wanted to do for the rest of my life; to create a plan that I was bound by. I didn't have any real aspirations apart from travelling overseas, having an office job and being happy. So incredibly simple right?

I never thought that I would be where I am today. To be fair, I also didn't think I would still physically be here. But that is another story.

I am glad to be where I am now, and I am intrigued to see where life will take me in another 10 years.

* There were fleeting moments where I regretted working so many hours during my student years. Perhaps it was FOMO, especially during uni, where it seemed that everyone was travelling at every available moment. However, I wouldn't have been able to finish university debt-free, travel on the odd occasion and have a decent amount of savings if I hadn't made those choices.

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